Ok wel today i am starting to fell over welmed with the season I always get like this at this time of year. Since it is the CHRISTmas season and also my boys birthday. I get to over wellemed with it all that sooner or later i start to break normally i have most of my shopping done by oct but this year it is hard with money and not having it. I try my hardest not to freak about it or feel down about it but it just does it to me and i cant control it. I always want to seperate their birthdays from christmas. to make it alittle easier but at the same time i have to remember what the season is truly about the birth of our lord. the time for givien and not recieving.